Dear Gabby,
This is seriously not fun. Feeling nauseous day in and day out is terrible. This part of the pregnancy really puts mummy off but the thought that I'll see you in my arms after 10 months, mummy will endure! After all they said that morning sickness will stop once you hit 12 weeks! =)
We decided to wait till you were week 8 to see Dr Benjamin Tham. However at week 5, mummy accidentally drank some lemon grass and I start to spot. This was really a nightmare! Mummy lost a baby previously and spotting was the first sign. I thought I was going to lose you again! I drank so much water so that I can purge the lemon grass out of my system. I had to pray and get grand aunt to pray fervently! You were strong little buddy! You managed to pull through Gabby dear! And there you go...
You were estimated to be delivered on the 4th January. Mummy hoped for a 1st January baby so I can get all the goodies! Haha. You won't believe how bad I vomited on a daily basis. I can be sleeping in the middle of the night and will suddenly wake up to run to the loo. Everything that I ate will be purged out wholesale. As the weeks progressed, it was so bad that I can to be bed-ridden for a month. I've also taken note of the things that I can or cannot eat so that I can throw up less. I do not have any appetite but for your sake I had to eat and then puke again... The whole cycle continues... Mummy did lost some weight but you were gaining so that's most important.
I don't know what's wrong with my body but suddenly I began to spot again. We had to make a trip to Dr Tham and mummy was given an injection to stablize you. Was told it was going to be at my bum and will be painful. I had to be really brave! Everyday, mummy and daddy was so worried about your well being. We cant wait to see you and your heartbeats.
*I have to admit I almost went berserk when I heard about the detrimental effects of lemon grass during pregnancy. I was fuming inside not just with Mommy but also Granny who innocently concocted the drink. However Granny wasn't informed about your existence yet so there wasn't really anyone to be blamed. I can't help but curse under my breath why such ridiculous things keep occuring? Why can't things just be a little bit smoother and that we have less thing to worry about, especially after we lost your older sibling for some reason that we have no idea about.
On a hindsight, although I still think these anxieties can be avoided, I do feel that the experience made us treasure you a truckload more. Daddy always hope the days move faster and look forward to our next gynae session. Just to see your strong little heartbeat and wriggling motion. For expecting parents, there is nothing more important and err.. heartening than seeing your heart beating strong. Perhaps our previous loss left a psychological shadow in Daddy's heart and all Daddy wants to see is your heartbeat before anything else. *
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