Dear Gabby,
We went through the OSCAR scan at week 12 and saw that you were all healthy! Before entering the room, daddy and mummy had a phobia because we found out that we had lost a baby during the last OSCAR scan. I was so touched and moved when I saw you!
Look how wonderfully created you were!
However things were not as smooth as we thought. During week 18, mummy suddenly vomited so hard that I bled a lot! We went to KK immediately and was really scared and worried again. What if we lose our child again? Mummy will go mad! I prayed and prayed telling God to keep you safe! Grand aunt said God has created you and you will be a great servant to Him. So she assured me that nothing bad will happen to you. It's true. Despite the amount of blood that I bled, you were still safe inside me. Mummy had broke a polyp. I did not even know I had a polyp. Perhaps that's the reason why I kept bleeding. But baby, the vomiting still continues... It never ceases... Mummy vomited all the way till you were born for a good 9 months plus. It was really terrible. Every food that goes in comes out... =(
*I have to say that this picture is one that Daddy loves the most. Look at that lovely definition of your spine! It is amazing to even think about how you have evolved from a tiny speck to an organism with a proper bone structure. Life is nothing short of being a miracle.
With regards to yet again another spotting incident, Daddy remembered that I had to be at a soccer game at Gombak Stadium for an important game. However nothing was more important than you. I recalled that I was bordering on tears while giving my final instructions to the team before telling them I had to go, without giving them the reason.
Mommy had called shortly after I let her off to Granny place and it is the damned spotting again. By now you should have known that Daddy have no patience for this nonsense and always feel extremely helpless. We went to Thomson first before realizing they are not much of a help and ended up in KK.
The waiting wasn't so bad but all we cared was whether you are ok. The doctor can't seem to locate your heartbeat and that really REALLY drove me nuts. Thankfully like engaging the car gears, somehow she managed to find the sweet spot and that rhythmic beat of your heart sounded like music to us. You are still alive. It may sound crude and strange to use phrases such as "you are still alive" but it truly and madly is what goes through my mind. Daddy couldn't care less for other things.
The doctor removed some kind alien-like life form blob from Mommy's insides which was probably this [<----------------------------------------------------------------------------------->] long. How could this flesh-like pendulum be existing in Mommy without any discomfort?? But anyway this irritating piece of shit was the apparent culprit of the constant spotting so good riddance! *
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